Tuesday, September 11, 2012

God's Working, Bringing the Light


We sit around the kitchen table after a particularly tough morning workout eating our breakfast of eggs and bagels and apples.  We are blessed to have this “family” time with each other before we each head off to our first day working with our respective outreach partners. Dionte, Madison and I are headed off to Right Moves for Youth. Rachelle is going to Crisis Assistance Ministries and Michael will be at 2xSalt for the day. 
            For those of us going to RMFY, it’s our first day of middle school all over again. I am hesitant about this placement, I don’t want to experience the pain of knowing what these kids are going through. I don’t know how to interact with middle school kids who had seen more in their lifetime than I have in mine. I don’t feel like I have enough wisdom, enough knowledge, enough skill with kids to be a leader in this school. I’m uncomfortable. I’m uncomfortable for Christ. My heart breaks for these kids. And as I step through the doors of Ashley Park Elementary school, I feel the prayer I’ve prayed so many times not realizing what I was asking for come true- Lord, break my heart for what breaks yours. Use me Lord to bring glory to Your name. You have my life, use it to make changes in this world.  
            We lead a group of 18 middle school boys into a classroom for their RMFY meeting time. School has just started, thank you Lord for allowing us to be the very first thing these kids encounter today. Thank you that though pain may come in the night, joy comes in the morning. May we be a source of joy here.  Help us show these kids love and set a tone in our meetings for each boy to have a great day at school today.  Dionte, Madison and I introduce ourselves to the boys and break into small groups of five students each. We begin with the facilitation of conversations about the best players currently in the NFL to warm the kids up to us. My group argues over whether Tom Brady or Aaron Rogers is the better QB to add to our fantasy football team in order to beat all the other teams. They start to talk amongst themselves and ask me joking questions about my preference of players that I’ve never heard of.
            We then move on to discuss who the boys think the greatest role model of their generation is. We hear everything from Martin Luther King Jr. (not exactly your generation, squirt) to Lebron to My Dad to Michael Jordan and everything in between. The end result - after many arguments over various athletic superstars - is Barrack Obama “because he was the first black president.”
            His contributions of “lowering taxes” and “giving money to the shelters” also make him a stand-out candidate in the eyes of the students.
            The boys meeting is coming to a close, the final activity today is arranging themselves in alphabetical order by first name without speaking. They take turns going down the line telling us their names and one fact about themselves. Most cop out and share the number of siblings they have, or which street basketball team they play on. One kid is courageous and unapologetic as he steps up and tells us “I love to clean. I’ve got that ODC,” to which we all burst out laughing and let him know that the disorder is in fact, OCD. The bell rings and the boys are given a brief opportunity to ask Dionte, Madison and I any questions that they may have for us.  
            “Yea, I have one – are y’all coming back?”
            And there it is – the confirmation that we are right where we are supposed to be. We know we are here to bring about restoration. And we’re here to be consistent sources of light in the lives of these kids.


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